I was struggling… Life was pulling me in many directions, but my real struggle was with something greater — the root of my struggle. I was trying, pushing myself, and oh so stressed! I was trying to force something. That something is my dreams.
Then, God and I had a talk. Well, it was more like He spoke conviction into my heart, and I knew it was truth. It was this penetrating question, “Do you trust me with your dreams?”
I knew then that was the struggle. I was trying to force my dreams in my strength, my time, and my way.
God was asking me if I trusted Him enough with my dreams. I then realized that was the issue.
That question helped me to recognize again that all of life comes down to one penetrating question, “Do you trust God?” And the answer is almost always a definitive “no” if you don’t really know He loves you.
God then flooded my heart with so many reminders of His love, but the greatest one was the cross. This is what He spoke to my heart, when I asked myself, “Do I trust Him/believe He loves me enough?”:
He spoke this to my heart: “Because I was willing to give my life for you.” If He was willing to sacrifice everything, including His relationship with His perfect Abba Father and suffer the ultimate of all suffering for me, then I know. I know He loves me enough. He loves me enough for anything life might send my way.
The point is, dear ones, the problem is not with our faith — our faith in His power. The problem is with our awareness of His love. The truth is we often don’t really believe or comprehend His love for us. We are still measuring it by the tragedies of our life, by the false earthly representations, and by the twisted thinking of those who claim to represent God.
What God spoke to my heart this morning was this:
As the parable of the father in the Prodigal Son, so He will always pursue me — no matter what I’ve done, always desiring to bring me back to Himself. And with that, I whisper, “God, don’t ever stop pursuing me and bringing me back within the security and fullness of your Love.”
Wrote this to friends this morning:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgGUKWiw7Wk — And then I finally found Love — Love so perfect, so infinite, and I am reduced to an unashamed curtain of tears … to this overflowing, overwhelming awareness that I am “found,” “seen,” “heard,” and complete within Love. We all yearn for perfect, infinite Love… we want someone or something to truly know us and to truly love us within that vulnerability and transparency, allowing us to blossom within the security of unfathomable, immeasurable Love! Within the embrace of lavish love, my heart unfurls, and the fragrance, vibrancy, and life blooms!
My heart is coming unfurled.
I may be accused of being more emotional, but the truth is my heart is learning that it can be more vulnerable. My heart is being allowed to feel more because I have found a “Safe Haven.” I can “risk” my heart when I know there is truly no risk with God.
How about you?
Do you trust God with your dreams?
Do you trust Him with your heart?