Not The Only One

Have you ever felt like you had to put on a “mask” because no one really wanted to hear how you were feeling and/or you couldn’t be totally honest because surely no one else has such an imperfect life?  I am guessing and fairly confident that I am not the only one.

I am not the only one who has forgotten to brush her kids’ teeth before sending them to bed.

I am not the only one who has had moments when she felt that she didn’t like certain children at the time.

I am not the only one who has left a counter full of dirty dishes before wearily falling onto her bed.

I am not the only one whose children threw a hysterical fit at the doctor’s office.

I am not the only one who has tried almost every discipline suggestion for certain behavioral issues, but none of them worked.

I am not the only one who has been so touched, bumped, fought over by kids, that she doesn’t want any more physical contact for the rest of the day.

I am not the only one who has worn pajamas past lunch time (when I had two little ones under 18 months and for a short time).

I am not the only one who has dust bunnies that seem to procreate as often as their animal equivalents or maybe more.

I am not the only one who would be totally embarrassed on some days if you showed up unexpectedly because the house is really that messy!

I am not the only one who considers a true vacation to be one that doesn’t involve cooking, cleaning, or laundry.

I am not the only one who has to apologize to her children many times for speaking too harshly.

I am not the only one who has to start her day with much prayer in order to live as she ought.

I am not the only one whose child has run away from her in a public setting.

I am not the only one who isn’t sure if she is making the right decision when it comes to vaccinations, diet, health, etc…

I am not the only one who struggles with balancing compassion with firmness.

I am not the only one who has greeted her husband at the door with no supper and none in the works.

I am not the only one who has thought that tears were a weakness, and it’s better to hold it all together.  When in reality, I am bottling frustrations inside, and it would be better if I cried instead.

I am not the only one who wishes she could take a “sick day” at times too.

I am not the only one who doesn’t enjoy crafts.

I am not the only one who wishes she was more creative and could make more things from scratch.

I am not the only one who struggles with feelings of being a failure as a mom at times.

I am not the only one who has threatened to send her children to public school instead of homeschooling them (not that public school is all bad — just not our choice for the present for our children).

I am not the only one who has felt overwhelmed.

I am not the only one who doesn’t have all the answers to her children.

I am not the only one who has felt like someone else could do a much better job raising her children.

I am not the only one who has been shown that in all the messiness of life and real living … in all it’s imperfection, grace — so much abundant grace has been given!

I am not the only one who laughs with delight to watch her children play at the park, who takes joy in making a meal that the whole family liked, who remembered to walk in that grace before speaking a harsh word.

I am not the only who sees my own unworthiness, but sees that the greater the need, the greater is the opportunity for God’s grace to be revealed!

Sometimes, it’s nice to know we are not alone.  Turning our eyes off ourselves helps us to see that there are so many others just like us, searching and seeking hope and grace.

Because of God’s grace, we are not alone!

“Christ asks you for nothing

Come just as you are;

Come sinful, come guilty,

Come give Him your heart.”

— Anon

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4 thoughts on “Not The Only One

  1. Angela

    Wow! That is beautifully written. As a mom, I can relate to several of those lines. That is called “letting down your hair.” It is good to be real and honest. I find it sad when the answer is “I’m fine” when you just heard some devasting news and you know that person is not fine.

    1. graceinthemoment

      Ang, we need to have more honesty and humility — not whining — but some transparency is necessary for deep friendships and to really help others. Trite phrases, cliches, or pat answers never help with genuine needs. I hope that some day I can encourage others to persevere and to have hope because of all the grace that God has given to this sinner!

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